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Monday, May 6, 2013

broad street run and whatnot




another thing off the bucket list!!! i finally ran the broad street run. 10 miles straight thru my city. 13 of us did it together. for some it was their first race ever. for a couple people, it was the first time they ever ran 10 miles! for one, a 54 yr old Master Sergeant, it was his 1st race and his first 10 miler. how about that???? amazing. it motivates me. he will also be doing the half marathon with us 11 days from now. doin the damn thing at 54. hard core bragging rights. luvs it.

i like the pains i have the day after. not the actual hurt, but the evidence of accomplishments. i accomplished more this weekend than most people do all month. i qualified with 2 weapons. most soldiers with my rank do not get that opportunity. it looks amazing on my military bio. M9 and M16 qualified! woo hoo! i was so nervous. if it was up to me, i would skip this part of training. but were soldiers. have to qualify or have a flag. no one wants a flag!!!! i am now considered "Special Staff". M9s are for officers. Me, having the greatest boss in the JAG office, who is also an expert marksman, walked me thru it and boom, qualified. i love that man. my army big brother. my protection. he's leaving me in a couple months. my life will get much harder without him in my corner. my entire army career up until now, he has been with me. he makes shit happen. keeps anyone from fucking with me, and introduces me to people who can help me get places. he pinned me at my promotion ceremony. an officer pinning enlisted is unheard of. in the normal order, he would not be in my chain of command. but there has been no one on the enlisted side who has done more for me than this man. it has been just the 2 of us for the last 2 1/2 years in the JAG office. we are the JAG for the command. me, the only paralegal in the Brigade, and he the only lawyer. It has been pretty badass. i was afforded the same privledges as him because he saw to it. it was also his first race, the Broad Street Run. also his first time in Philly. he said he ran the entire thing with a plastered smile on his face. he loved every minute of it. he thanked ME for talking him into doing it. he is still riding the high of the race and doing something cool. he'll do it again in 11 days with the rest of us. i cant wait. that is him and i in the pic. cheesin before the race started.

so much of life is a challenge. some challenges are by choice. like running a long distance. it was painful, but it was a choice. today when i saw that 54 yr old MSG, he was walking funny but smiling. his wife of 30 years and his kids had a cake and a small party waiting for him when he got home. the look on his face was priceless. did i mention he finished only a minute and a half after me? again, badass.

i am the unofficial/official, wether i like it or not, organizer of these things. i apparently motivate people into doing things they never thought of. in my past life, i probably motivated people to do things, but maybe not things they would be proud of. now, a lot of my time is spent rallying groups to venture out and kick some ass. after this half marathon? i need to find another event. one not just for runners, but a feel good, team building, bonding, bragging rights, kinda thing. maybe a big fund raiser for Wounded Warriors or Yellow Ribbon? Maybe climb a mountain, white water rafting. something cool where we can find the strength in our Battle Buddies in times where strength is something were lacking in that moment. an experience or memory of the extraordinary. i have 11 days before i have to start planning the next thing. one finish line at a time!!!!





Sunday, April 14, 2013

jumping the pond




one of my oldest friends is leaving and moving to england. wtf!!!! crazier than me joining the army. so much more badass too. she has always walked to a beat of a different drummer. like me, she didnt fit in. lots of friends but different. different in a great way. i can speak from experience, it can be lonely. no one can understand you if you can't understand yourself. 40 years old. never married. no kids. she has done all she can here. time for a big change. just moving. no plan. no job. staying in a hotel for a week and writing the story as she goes. badass. much respect.

the 3 of us have kept in touch since high school. all weirdos living lives separate. living in different places, working all kinds of gigs, creativity stifled most times, weeded out the bullshit and only do the positive. i cannot wait to follow her new life. denise and i have already planned to visit in august. my first trip to europe to see philly. xoxo

Wednesday, April 10, 2013

watch your 6




omg. i cant believe i didnt share immediately. i know those of you who read this shit, prefer that i be pissed. when im angry? im funny. this i know. ive always known.

i can tell by the hits on this blog, that people who read it? love when i hate something. thats when i get the most hits. except for the "club espo". people google that like nobody's biz. 2009 i wrote that. it still gets the most traffic. and so... here comes the angry...

so, i have "liked", on FB, every yoga studio in the Philly area. i need to know what is going on every where, in case i get a free hour or so.

so here i am, a month or 2 ago, and see that the "clown" is now teaching yoga on the outskirts of P town.

is it xmas? or just desserts? i cant answer that yet. but trust, when i can, i will.

sooooooo... anyhooooooo. he lied about his certifications. he cant teach with his credentials.its so easy to blow up his spot.

2- hes acting as a yoga superstar when he is creepy guy. yogi creepy mccreeperson. "i am now authorized to adjust you". maybe these "cool kids" will accept you? haha.

3- the best for me? im tracking him. i know where he is. not just at this studio, but another stupid main line spot. watch your 6. watch your 6.

4- remember i mentioned your "shining moment"? so close i can bite its face.

5- my ex you hate? has class cards at that place. hes also banged almost every "teacher" there. he told me himself as he made his way thru the staff.
6- i run with the yoga "elite" at times. they will hear my side.
7- youre still horribly ugly. inside and out. you will never be accepted.
8- fuck you.
9- again, watch yur 6.
10- LA no longer aknowledges you. you went from"im a producer" to "i teach free classes. please legitimize me".

watch you 6.
watch you 6.
watch you 6.

Tuesday, April 9, 2013

SGT Kelly the date is wrong. 04/2013 originally written

finally. im a member of the non comission officers. NCO back bone of the army. i made it to the promotion list 6 months ago. my date of rank is 01 feb. back pay for 2 months, not 6. it is what it is. so, sgt kelly is in the house.

speaking of house...

i live with the boo now. only day 10. it is an adjustment to say the least. i havent had a day off since i moved in. still 2 more days until i actually wake up here and dont have to rush out the door. i hope this works. we love each other a whole lot, but sometimes life and outside influences fuck shit up. stress is high around here. working too much, unforeseen happenings presented their ugly heads, the boo has an injury that is killing him. we just want to stop the hamster wheel. i keep wanting to smell the roses. i cant slow down.

Monday, March 18, 2013

the dessert

tomorrow morning i leave for the dessert. middle of nowhere CA. no cell service, no fb. 90-100 degrees by day, 30 degrees at night. this is not a trip im looking forward too. sleeping in large tents on cots. no privacy, no rest. bullshit army training. i just have to grab my crayons, shut up, and color. sometimes, like any job, work just sucks.

the Boo says he can already hear me complaining. truer words have never been spoken. i am burnt out. april looks a little more chill, but my summer is fucked. starting on mothers day, im almost everywhere but home. going on one full year of active army. more active than army. i dont need a nap, i need a coma.

4 day weekends happen, but sometimes a weekend doesnt happen at all. like this weekend. i took off today just for sanity's sake. and i took the Boo away for the weekend. early birthday celebrtion. i wont be here for his actual birthday. i knew i would need some recovery. its still not enough. i will not get a decent break until the second half of august. uuuggggghhhhhhh.

oh well, during this year, i got out of debt, fixed my credit, earned 100% tuition plus pay, ran a 10 miler, training for a half marathon, became eligible for VA mortgage/loan, about to buy a grown up car, and looking at a vaca home in the mountains. moving in with the boo. crazy, scary, anxiety about this. i love him so much, but i have always needed my space. i am not home much. got a storage unit for my things. most of my shit is not kid friendly. i would like to keep it forever. the very worst that can happen? it doesnt work out, i saved money, he had it easier finacially and with sharing responsibilities, my shit stays intact, i help change this place, raising the property value and erasing the xmas past. we drive on. or the best case? he and i combine our brains, brawn, finances and become very comfortable in a short amount of time so we dont have to work this hard for much longer. either way?

Tuesday, March 12, 2013

more glitter


$15 dress. Comped Tickets for Jenny being "Media". Much fun. We talked to no one. We danced, drank, laughed and went back to real life. It's these moments. The break from the everyday normal shit. A chance to play dress up. Like Holloween. A rare girlie day.







Saturday, March 9, 2013

captain obvious

i can't stand when people take time to lecture you on shit you already know. shit everybody already knows. like smoking. i'm a non smoker for over 3 months now, but countless times, some rocket scientist would explain to me how bad smoking is for your health. really???? who told you this? what do you mean it causes cancer? was there a study done? i never knew that inhaling smoke into my lungs and kicking it back into the atmosphere, could possibly be wrong! holy crap!!! let me stop this right now! thank you so much kind sir for saving my life!!! SHUT UP DICK!!!!

or the fitness/diet guy. "well, if you cut out the doughnuts, pasta, and cheese, and work out, with lots of cardio, you'll hit your target weight". oh my god dude! you should write a book or something!!! all this time, i thought shoving my face with bon bons, while watching jerry springer,i would eventually become a size 2. i had no idea it was calories in, calories out. Mean while, this is the dude drinking sugar free red bull, chain smoking and doing blow. but he's got a 6 pack, so he must be healthy.

just a quick rant.